Tuesday, September 27, 2005

loves it!!!


HOTNESS!
ipod nano, i likey likey!

Saturday, September 24, 2005

rants and regrets

i am such a friggin coward!!! i could just strangle myself for being the ninny that I am. well, it serves me right because now I will end up wondering about it till the next opportunity comes along or for the rest of my life. moving on...
mama and i have started fixing the requirements for Canada which Tito Lloyd has been waiting forever for. the whole activity daunts me. once everything has been processed and we do get there, and then what? what does a 20 something year old, devcomm grad do in Calgary? i have absolutely no idea! what i do know is that Calgary is a cold place to live in, with the Canadian Rockies in that area, how am I supposed to keep my feet from freezing in my havs!?! uugghh! next thing you know, i'll probably have a collection of Ugg Boots.
this is a nonsensical post, so if you are confused by what you're reading, X out this browser - now na!
i just don't know what i'm doing, a year of working and i haven't really made anything of myself. this may not be the CAREER i want, but it would have been nice if i'd tried harder. the opportunity to move up came along but i passed it up simply because i felt scared. i was filling out an ijaf and read through what i was typing. the whole page was simply anaemic, i didn't think i did that well at all, and if didn't think i did well enough what more of the person who would be assessing my junk? so i tore it up and tried to forget about it. then my QA analyst comes over to my station and asks if i passed the application. i told her i didn't and she wanted strangle me too.
yes, this is something i am definitely regretting.
sigh...i am so bored i could scream. i am so bored i could start pulling out my hair one by one. puuhhhhhhleeeeezzzz!!! i can't do this anymore. i just want to pack my things and ride a banca all the way to boracay and wear nothing but bandeaus, skimpy shorts and trusty havaianas. then i remember that i hate the beach because i do not get a lovely mocha tan like normal people do if they bask under the sun, instead I'll get burned and streaked like bacon rashers, i hate how sand gets in between my toes and how salt water stings my skin and my eyes. hah! life's a beach, life's a bitch! i read somewhere that life is NOT a bitch it's a virgin...bitches are too easy or something to that effect. do you agree?
i'm so scared. i'm so scared of not being able to live out my dream. in a couple of months a shall be a year older. another 365 days wasted on something i care not for...

Friday, September 09, 2005

unsent...

don't flatter yourself too much. what happened was a mere coincidence and nothing more. i may be a scheming cunt but I was in no way involved in the scriptwriting of that episode in your pathetic life. it was perhaps the universe's way of reminding us that the Fates are three biyotches with a sardonic sense of humour.
we were both taken aback to find ourselves in the same room. the same people were there doing the same things they were doing two years ago. it was just like the old times but NOT. two years ago we still belonged there, now we're just groupies of the Institute.
i successfully resisted what was left of your charms and was able to ignore you much to your chagrin. still, i must admit i was painfully aware of your existence. was that your attempt at making conversation? boy, you sucked! were you trying to catch my attention? well, it may please you to know that i did notice a few things about you that day:

1) you look older than when I last saw you;
2) you were wearing a new pair of black, leather shoes although they are no better than the pair you had before;
3) you now sport a silver stud on one ear (whaddaf*%#*!?!)
4) you have not stopped smoking since I left (hah! now I flatter myself..).

you have the honor of being my "last teenage crush". No, i am no longer infatuated with you, i know better now and there is nothing romantic in being with a complicated man. there are so many things that I would like to ask you though. Everytime you are mentioned, a great, long converstaion of what-ifs and could-haves would result between moi and tevs. there are so many things that you have yet to explain, not because you owe it to me or anything, just so i would finally be able to stop wondering. over the years the questions have kept piling up and the non-communication was pregnant with words left unsaid, things undone, messages unsent and the ultimate question unasked and therefore unanswered.
please, these chance encounters have to stop. i don't want to know the answers when i no longer have the will nor the interest to ask. let us leave everything as they are - a puzzle unsolved and unfinished...

Thursday, September 08, 2005

smallville

on a whim evs and i went to smallville yesterday. it was one of those now or never decisions, the kind where we knew that if we didn't act on our impulse and we planned to go on a another date the "scheduled" trip will never push through. so off we went to the beloved paddies on a GreenStar Liner. We texted our mhen Nessie who got inggit and said she'll just render halfday of work and will see us later.
we were so excited on the bus, thinking of all the things we were going to eat, all the new places we were going to see. some people have comfort food, we have a comfort town in smallville. ewan ba kung bakit namin laging hinahanap hanap and smallville. it's our place of solace, the place where we could just go back to being carefree, young and unconquered by the realities of life.
we alighted at college around 830 am. we had not had breakfast so yet we walked to Petrinos and scarfed down their yummy tapsilog.

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after breakfast, we headed for the institute.

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ganito ang epekto ng petrinos tapsi

ayun, naranasan na naman namin ang pang didiri ng mga dyipni draybers sa pag sesenyas namin sa kamay na papunta kami ng institute. pag ni-clarify mo pa at talagang binigkas na sa i**i ka magpapahatid ay bigla nilang ipapaling ang ulo at saka iiling ng HINDI!
finally, we were able to lure a jeep to get us to our hallowed fields. first stop, VIS para mag wee-wee sa paboritong water closet. we made our usual rounds, it was just like the old times but deep inside we all knew we could never really go back to how it all was before.
come afternoon time the complete cast was at the caf. ang saya! kinulit namin si dudi, binalahura si kuya uro, dinedma si tumbs, inasar si jennie, humungi ng lanyard mula kay tito macky, nag da buzz with sir boyet, at nung gabi eh tinukso si sir paul para i-libre kami sa coffeeblends. sa phuongs kaming tatlong bugok nag-dinner ng spicy sauteed chicken..hay,sarap talaga. pero nung gabi na wala na kami masyado energy kaya wala nang pics. kala nga namin sa demarses lang kami uuwi. hehehe....it was a tiring but memorable day. nes, evs and i tried so hard to steal that day. to make it ours, to make the laughter, the gossip, the taste and the feeling of smallville last in our memories for another six months or until we would be able to return once more.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

REZKLAMADORS' DAY OUT!

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team REZklamadors at the Krocodile Grill, Greenbelt



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supe(r) rez, owen aka piper, berna, me, ely, paul and haydn


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the rezklamadoras: rocky, owen, berna, me and haydn

Sunday, September 04, 2005

talaga lang ha?

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

Saturday, September 03, 2005

para sa yo...

Saranggola sa Ulan
Gary Granada
Naririnig ko pa ang bawat hagikhik
ng una kong sinta at kalarong paslit
at ang sabi ng matatanda
siya ay maalwan ako'y dukha
Di raw kami bagay
at kay raming dahilan
ngunit si Bakekay ay walang pakialam
sa aming kamusmusan kay raming palaisipan
ngunit tatlong bagay ang aking natutunan
Ang pag-asa'y walang hanggan
Pag-ibig ay walang hadlang
At lilipad ang saranggola sa ulan
At kung ang pagsinta'y di rin magtagal
ang mas mahalaga natutong magmahal
umibig ng walang panghihinayang
kahit na malamang na masaktan
Kanina lang sa aking tabi may aleng lumiko
at sa pagmamadali nasagi aking puso
Eto na naman ako sa aking kabaliwan
na sinasabi nga nilang suntok sa buwan
Ngunit hindi hihindian ng tulad kong natuto nang
magpalipad ng saranggola sa ulan
Gaya ng langit laging sinasabi ko
o siya nawa ay siya na nga ang totoo
Eto na naman ako sa aking kabaliwan
na sinasabi nga nilang suntok sa buwan
Ngunit hindi hihindian ng tulad kong natuto nang
magpalipad ng saranggola sa ulan
Eto ako tumatandang nakahandang panindiganang
bato sa tubig ay lulutang at lilipad ang saranggola sa ulan.
Alam ko theme song ito ng buhay pag-ibig mo. Salamat nga pala sa pag share mo sa akin ng napakagandang awitin na ito. Ako din ay isang romantiko at naniniwala sa laman ng kanta.Alam ko mahal mo siya, pero hanggang kelan ka handa na magtiis, hanggang saan mo kayang masaktan sa isang bagay na walang kasiguraduhan? hahayaan kitang magmahal kung alam kong mabuti ito para sa yo. kung nakikita kitang masaya, pero unang beses ata kita nakitang maluhaluha sa publiko ay kinabahan ako. hindo mo yon role. ohmigosh! at may balak ka pa atang agawan ako ng trono bilang drama queen.
i can't tolerate the waiting, waiting for something that may never be. heck, if you asked me to do some evaaaahl stunts with you to expedite something, anything to know what his plans are, i would!!! don't you wanna know where you stand? oo, nakakabaliw ang umibig. at normal din na masaktan dahil sa pagibig, at minsan dahil likas din tayong masokista ay kahit alam nating pwede tayong masaktan, eh ok lang. Kibber! pero hindi okay maging bulag kung napakalaki naman ng mga mata mo. di ba ikaw na din ang nagsabing mala-flashlight ang mga mata mo? bukod sa nakikita, ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman mo? may pupuntahan ba talaga lahat ng pagtitiis, paguunawa at pagbibigay ng paulitulit?
malaki ka na. madami tayong ugali na magkapareha, at sana isa dito ay ang magpakatanga at isang araw ay mauntog, matauhan at mamulat ng tuluyan. at sa pag mulat mo, pangako, tutulungan pa kitang magpalipad ng saranggola sa ulan...

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