a weighty issue
i am getting fat again. i feel the heaviness and the fat rolling around my waistline whenever i sit down. i lost weight last year when i got sick from eating or drinking something. that was the first time i ever got sick enough to see a doctor and allow myself to be plugged to a dextrose bottle.
now i am getting fat again...
funny why this should concern me now, i have never cared about my weight before. i have never had any body image issues, could never care less what the bathroom scales would say. Of course it frustrates me when shirts cling and emphasize the roly-poly moi, i hate it when i get red marks around my waist from jeans that got tighter after a scrumptious meal at phuong's. Other than these normal how-the-clothes-fit-the-girl issues, i'm fine with my imperfect body.
but after knowing bilbil free days, it irks me to know, feel and see i am gaining weight. i'll admit, losing weight does have its down side. i've already got really high cheekbones and when i get thin it gets even more prominent. jeans look awf'ly saggy around the bum or are always slipping down the waist.my breasts get smaller and my legs look like bamboo skewers. in other words, i start looking like an otap. getting thin was also bad for my bank account. i kinda liked the buzz i got from buying things that had S or XS on its label.
food. weight. clothes.
these are universal issues. everybody has something to say about them, everybody has an opinion. people are obsessed with food, their weight and the latest in clothes. three subjects that could be mentioned in one sentence. issues important enough to make it on the covers of Time magazine. three things i never bother about. as long as i have food to eat, clothes that look decent and my body still fit into the current clothes i own...i'm fine.
suddenly i start worrying about how much food i take in, how i tip the scales and if my love handles are noticeable in the clothes i'm wearing?!?
blech! gettalife!!!
now i am getting fat again...
funny why this should concern me now, i have never cared about my weight before. i have never had any body image issues, could never care less what the bathroom scales would say. Of course it frustrates me when shirts cling and emphasize the roly-poly moi, i hate it when i get red marks around my waist from jeans that got tighter after a scrumptious meal at phuong's. Other than these normal how-the-clothes-fit-the-girl issues, i'm fine with my imperfect body.
but after knowing bilbil free days, it irks me to know, feel and see i am gaining weight. i'll admit, losing weight does have its down side. i've already got really high cheekbones and when i get thin it gets even more prominent. jeans look awf'ly saggy around the bum or are always slipping down the waist.my breasts get smaller and my legs look like bamboo skewers. in other words, i start looking like an otap. getting thin was also bad for my bank account. i kinda liked the buzz i got from buying things that had S or XS on its label.
food. weight. clothes.
these are universal issues. everybody has something to say about them, everybody has an opinion. people are obsessed with food, their weight and the latest in clothes. three subjects that could be mentioned in one sentence. issues important enough to make it on the covers of Time magazine. three things i never bother about. as long as i have food to eat, clothes that look decent and my body still fit into the current clothes i own...i'm fine.
suddenly i start worrying about how much food i take in, how i tip the scales and if my love handles are noticeable in the clothes i'm wearing?!?
blech! gettalife!!!
